Don't say something stupid like that. You two are seriously a lot similar in that aspect, at least.
[There's a bit of a huff in her breath and the light redness of cheeks in embarrassment even as she continues to move, simply looking like a blur in the night to anyone else who might still be awake at these late hours. She's certain there aren't too many, unless she's unlucky. And considering what's happening now? Her luck isn't exactly the most stellar.
But thankfully things are good enough that nobody notices her, not to mention that she isn't be pursued, either. She knows Illyasviel might show up, and there's a scenario where she definitely would, but.
That girl of winter doesn't care about her; she's just an insignificant fly compared to who she's really after. And it causes her to grit her teeth because she knows exactly what that girl's been through now. But that girl isn't Tohsaka's problem. In fact, being sent back this far also means that Sakura is still in pain in more ways than one, and she knows it all too well.
In memories that she shouldn't have. In words that she can hear ringing through her ears, clear as day.
"Don't be ridiculous! This is unfair! Why, Nee-san, why are you always the one!
That's right...! I was jealous of you...! You stayed at the Tohsaka's house and were always brilliant. I hate you for never knowing any trouble.That's why I want to win. I wanted you to praise me, just once...! Why can't you let me have a little thing like that...!
Why!? It was different for me. We were sisters, we were born to the same family, but I had nothing! I was trapped in the room with worms and was treated as an object! I never led a human life, and nobody said anything kind to me...!
I almost died every day. I always looked at myself in the mirror, wanting to die. But I was scared of dying, and I didn't want to disappear by myself...! Because I heard that I had an older sister. I'm a child of the Tohsaka family, so I always believed that my older sister would come save me...! But you never came. You just kept smiling, having no idea. You took no notice of the miserable girl and lived happily in the Tohsaka household."
Ah.
So there is something that she still has to do, after saving this boy. Because otherwise she would end up full of regrets, just like before. But she's aware that she cannot save Matou Sakura by herself. Nevertheless, she finally answers his statement, his thought of 'there's someone else that was meant for'.]
It isn't a waste. [It's strange of her to say something like this, considering that she's a magus-- that she's supposed to be cold hearted and not care about other people, and yet she saved his life in spite of that. She's contradictory.] I did it because I wanted to. This was my choice.
[And she finally slows down as they reach their destination: the Tohsaka estate, her heels clicking as she speaks the words under her breath to undo the spell making her almost float from the ground and make her fast, although she does have to keep up her strengthening so that Hinata isn't a pain in the ass to carry.
By which she subsequently sighs as she walks in and carries him up the stairs and into the bedroom. Specifically, her own as she eventually lays him down. There.]
Phew... okay, Archer should be back any time soon. If you hear me talking to him, just pretend you don't hear anything? Alright?
[Because she knows Archer is going to chastise her if he finds out that he knows about magic and isn't a magus.]
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also cw: family abuse/sexual assault mentions
Date: 2018-04-11 07:00 am (UTC)[There's a bit of a huff in her breath and the light redness of cheeks in embarrassment even as she continues to move, simply looking like a blur in the night to anyone else who might still be awake at these late hours. She's certain there aren't too many, unless she's unlucky. And considering what's happening now? Her luck isn't exactly the most stellar.
But thankfully things are good enough that nobody notices her, not to mention that she isn't be pursued, either. She knows Illyasviel might show up, and there's a scenario where she definitely would, but.
That girl of winter doesn't care about her; she's just an insignificant fly compared to who she's really after. And it causes her to grit her teeth because she knows exactly what that girl's been through now. But that girl isn't Tohsaka's problem. In fact, being sent back this far also means that Sakura is still in pain in more ways than one, and she knows it all too well.
In memories that she shouldn't have. In words that she can hear ringing through her ears, clear as day.
"Don't be ridiculous! This is unfair! Why, Nee-san, why are you always the one!
That's right...! I was jealous of you...! You stayed at the Tohsaka's house and were always brilliant. I hate you for never knowing any trouble.That's why I want to win. I wanted you to praise me, just once...! Why can't you let me have a little thing like that...!
Why!? It was different for me. We were sisters, we were born to the same family, but I had nothing! I was trapped in the room with worms and was treated as an object! I never led a human life, and nobody said anything kind to me...!
I almost died every day. I always looked at myself in the mirror, wanting to die. But I was scared of dying, and I didn't want to disappear by myself...! Because I heard that I had an older sister. I'm a child of the Tohsaka family, so I always believed that my older sister would come save me...! But you never came. You just kept smiling, having no idea. You took no notice of the miserable girl and lived happily in the Tohsaka household."
Ah.
So there is something that she still has to do, after saving this boy. Because otherwise she would end up full of regrets, just like before. But she's aware that she cannot save Matou Sakura by herself. Nevertheless, she finally answers his statement, his thought of 'there's someone else that was meant for'.]
It isn't a waste. [It's strange of her to say something like this, considering that she's a magus-- that she's supposed to be cold hearted and not care about other people, and yet she saved his life in spite of that. She's contradictory.] I did it because I wanted to. This was my choice.
[And she finally slows down as they reach their destination: the Tohsaka estate, her heels clicking as she speaks the words under her breath to undo the spell making her almost float from the ground and make her fast, although she does have to keep up her strengthening so that Hinata isn't a pain in the ass to carry.
By which she subsequently sighs as she walks in and carries him up the stairs and into the bedroom. Specifically, her own as she eventually lays him down. There.]
Phew... okay, Archer should be back any time soon. If you hear me talking to him, just pretend you don't hear anything? Alright?
[Because she knows Archer is going to chastise her if he finds out that he knows about magic and isn't a magus.]